Always odd

If there's one thing worse than knowing you’re different; it’s other people knowing too. People might know what makes you different but they know that something just isn’t quite right.

I never really felt like I fit it, but I never really cared. As a kid, all you had to worry about was what princess shirt you were going to wear or which Ken would marry Barbie that day. You never think about whether or not you were making the right face or coming off the right way.

Now, I’m constantly practicing my smile in the mirror or making sure my eyebrows are raised enough. I’m always thinking about other people and their perception of me, I don’t want to come off cold and boarding and I don’t think I do until someone else says it.

I’m often too engulfed in my own thoughts and worries to think about the fact that others may find me odd.

At the end of the day, I'd rather be odd and true to myself than “normal” and fit in. No one is normal, I like who I am and I won't apologize for it.